note!

I am so beautiful, sometimes people weep when they see me. And it has nothing to do with what I look like really, it is just that I gave myself the power to say that I am beautiful, and if I could do that, maybe there is hope for them too. And the great divide between the beautiful and the ugly will cease to be. Because we are all what we choose.

Margaret Cho, Margaret Cho\'s weblog, 03-23-06

it has been brought to my attention from my group of lovely, smart and bea-utiful friends that they are concerned about the information in this blog.

i should explain. i find myself in the cliche of haveing a love/hate relationship with my own body. CLICHE!i hate it!

i think that this space is going to help me work through those issues. hopefully what i am projecting here is HEALING not HURT.

i love you all so much for your concern, it was not my intention to invoke worry! i have come so far from the days of hydroxycut and eating this and that, or not.

i feel like there is something about being so open and honest with so many people that i have some sort of acountability instead of just making excuses to myself, like i always do/have done.

i want you all to know that it is so important to love yourself! that is my mission here. to come to a better place with the realtionship that i have with myself.

body image is SUCH a huge industry. HUGE.

margaret cho (idol!) put it best when she talks about the media. she says that advertising is nothing but billion upon billions of dollars spent by compaines to MAKE YOU FEEL LIKE SHIT so you will BUY THEIR PRODUCTS.

its all about money. they want me to feel to fat. too short too old so they can "fix" it for me.

i am trying to deal with that and so many more issues that i feel like i need to get out of my life. that is my blog.

i do LOVE that you girls are so worried for me. but dont be. this is HEALING!